There, I said it! Granted, I don't want the kind of fling that most people my age are looking for - I want to have a professional fling. That is, I want to work at a job "I like, but don't love," because I want to leave after a year or two, and pursue a Ph.D.
I told my adviser this today; he looked appalled. (I didn't even call it a fling; I just told him the liking but not loving part.) Apparently no one has ever said that before. Yes, I want to do something that I care deeply about, but I also want to be able to leave to go back to school, because I would love to do that. But... when I'm happy doing something, I sometimes forget my true love. Which, in this case, is school.
That sounds sad. But it's the truth. I love school so much... I love thinking and being encouraged to challenge my beliefs and previously held notions. It suits me well. I want to help people. I don't want to work for something that I don't believe in... and I want to learn continually through my life. I want to finish strong. I don't know how all of this is going to come together, but it's okay, because that makes it even more exciting.
So... I don't think wanting a 'fling' with a job is that horrible... but I'll see what I come up with. Ah, choices. (Well, it might end up being who chooses me, in the end.) Ironic, huh.
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